We live in the tension. If we're honest with ourselves, we live in the grayscale. Yes, there are certain things that are black and white, or certain things that are colorful, if you will. But so much of our life can be (or become) grayscale. As I read and reflect on the four readings from yesterday's Revised Common Lectionary, this unavoidable tension jumps off the pages, comes to life, and threatens my preferred 'way of life.' At first, not much seems to be in common between the time when Jonah finally obeyed and preached repentance in Ninevah (Jonah 3:1-5, 10), a psalm of David (Psalm 62:5-12), Paul's admonition to live like its the end of the world (1 Corinthians 7:29-31), and the time when Jesus called Simon, Andrew, James, and John to follow him (Mark 1:14-20). But on second thought, I see a similar tension in all the readings: that unavoidable balance we all seek between urgency and rest, and consumption and simplicity.
Jonah comes preaching an urgent message to the consumeristic society of Ninevah. It was a huge city, and in Biblical literature stands beside Babylon and against Jerusalem in representing the presence (or absence) of God and the life of God's people (or the death of those opposed to God). In the Psalm for the day, David is seeking rest and hope in God alone. In Paul's letter, we have one of the most difficult New Testament passages: live like the time is short! He even says, 'from now on those who are married should live as if they were not!' Take that home and discuss it over dinner with your spouse. What do you do with that? Of one thing we can be sure: there is definitely an urgency and a simplicity in Paul's message. And in the gospel reading from St. Mark, Jesus meets four fisherman, two sets of brothers. He calls them away from their vocation, away from a life of profits and losses, of weather and early morning launches, of income and consumption. With urgency, the gospel says 'at once' and 'without delay', they left the family business and followed Jesus.
As a husband, a father of 2 and 1/2, an advocate and activist on behalf of orphaned children at Children's HopeChest, a part-time worship leader at Holy Trinity Anglican Church, a part-time grad student at Fuller Theological Seminary... and a brother, a son, a friend, a neighbor... I find that most of my consumption is not simple, rather it's urgent, and there's not much time for rest. And much of this is 'grayscale.' Most of the things that take up my time, and most of the things that fill my suburban home, are not bad in and of themselves. But even with my desire to live a restful and simple life (and the knowledge that this is good for me), it quickly becomes obvious that the pace of my days is set by urgency and consumption. Now I'm spinning in grayscale.
Upon another read of the Psalm for today, I find a 'key' for processing all of these mixed messages. David says in verses 11 and 12, 'One thing God has spoken, two things I have heard: 'Power belongs to you, God, and with you, Lord, is unfailing love.'' I've often wondered what this business of 'one thing spoken, two things heard' really means. I was reading Karl Barth's Dogmatics in Outline recently and happened upon a clue. He said that God's grace and God's power are identical. Perhaps this one thing the Psalmist hears is the gracious power, the powerful grace of God.
Now, as I go back and read the Psalm first, and then follow it with the Old Testament, Epistle, and Gospel readings, thinking of the gracious power and powerful grace of God, I begin to understand just a little bit more how this urgency and rest, this consumption and simplicity can play together on the same field. The first realization is that it is not my grace or my power - or even my ability to understand the grayscales in my life that really matters. It is, rather, that the powerful and gracious God is LORD over Ninevah and Galilee, over the urgency of deadlines and the rest of a sleep Saturday afternoon, over the consumption of a suburban home and the simplicity of working-class fisherman leaving their nets behind.
So, with the psalmist, I say, 'yes, my soul, find rest in God.' Find rest in nothing but the graciously powerful and powerfully gracious God.
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